I left Entebbe, Uganda at 11:30pm on August 11th with Dani. We had a 10 hour flight to Amsterdam were we split ways. Since I’m 100% Dutch and live in a Dutch community I bought tulip bulbs for my mother while I was in the Amsterdam airport. As I was about to board the plane to the United States from Amsterdam, the lady at the security checkpoint could tell I was wearing a money belt. She made me take everything out of the belt AND padded me down where the belt was located. Do they really think I’m going to put a bomb in my underwear?! It was not a pleasant experience. I landed in Sioux Falls, SD on the 12th at 4:30pm to my family and grandparents. They were more than happy to see me step off the plane into familiar territory. The 13th of August I spent my day washing clothes/unpacking, saying good bye to a friend who is going to Nigeria for 9 months, and moving some things back to college. The morning of the 14th I started my senior year of college with a campus ministry retreat. Saturday and Sunday were very hard for me. I had to hold back (or try to hold back) tears many times throughout the day. Monday was a little bit better because we had 8 hours of solitude. This was the first time I had ever practiced solitude. It was great at first but towards the end it seemed to drag on. I thought things were better after the retreat until I was given many tasks to complete and things to think about in the following few days. I did not really have times when I thought I was going to fall asleep or were incredibly tired while returning, but for about a week and a half after returning I felt as if I just could not think. So I became frustrated by the tasks that were set before me and became selfish thinking “why cant I spend this time with my family?” “God, why is American culture like this..filled with busyness?” “Doesn’t anyone realize this is more than I can handle?” I then realized that even though we were talking about God the entire week, I was lacking the personal time with God. Then it was difficult (and still is) not to get frustrated that we were given so many tasks to complete that we didn’t have a lot of time for God. Some days while in Uganda I would have 3 or more hours with just God..then coming back to a culture where I’m forcing my time with God into eating breakfast became hard. My heart longed for the quality time with God and God alone. Last Thursday I went to prayer and praise service (Harp & Bowl) and for the first time since getting back, God and I had some devoted, uninterrupted alone time…and I weeped to the point I had to got to the bathroom I was sobbing so much. After talking to my friend Beth we talked with my old math teacher and he encouraged me to take part in a spiritual internship this semester which will include a meeting, bible study, prayer time, and helping the hurting in the community each week. He (and I also) thought it would be a great transition back into the American culture and would allow me to apply some of the things I learned in Uganda back here to the states. The next day (the 26th) I left with a bunch of people from my school on a debriefing retreat to reflect and discuss how our summers around the world were. It was great to talk about everything but it made me miss Stacy (who is in Tanzania student teaching) and the kids so much. When I look at the pictures of the kids I still cry…I can’t explain how much joy these kids brought to my life each day and how much I miss their smiles and laughter. Yes the first couple weeks back have been difficult at times and I’m sure I will continue to face the “why?” questions, but I have seen God’s faithfulness and love every step of the way. In fact, many days I fall more and more in love with God through the time I have with Him. Sometimes it has been difficult to be on a campus where almost everyone is in a relationship, but I have grown and will continue to grow so much closer to God this next year that I am embracing the extra time I get with Him since I am single right now. A verse that has really stuck out to me in the last week is 2 Corinthians 4: 8-12.
“We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body. For we who are alive are always being given over to death for Jesus’ sake so that his lfe may be revealed in our moral body. So the, death is at work in us, but life is at work in you.”
Ahh…just thinking how we each carry around a little bit of Jesus in us so that He can be shown to others is just so cool to think about, and how because He died he can be revealed through us. It reminds me of the lyrics by Gungor “You make beautiful things out of the dust. You make beautiful things out of us.” Are you allowing God to make beautiful things out of your life?
I am excited to see what the future holds even though I do not know the plans the Lord has for me, but I know His plans are always the best plans.....for those of you in NW Iowa check out the article on my trip in 9/3 edition of the NW Iowa Review!Thank you to everyone who has been praying for me along the way.
Prayer Requests:
For Stacy(student teaching in Tanzania) and Meghann (at Smile until December)
Me not to get frustrated about the little things especially with a classmate who makes very rude, unnecessary comments at times
To be able to forgive those who have hurt me in the past
God would reveal his future for me in HIs time



