"Every fear has no place against YOUR great name"-Max Lucado
This is something that I have been trying to learn the last month..giving up every fear. I was reading through "Fearless" on my way back from the Hastings football game (NW won in case you wanted to know ) and came across a thought provoking statement in the book..."Storms are not an option, but fear is." It made me think of my friend's family as her dad was just diagnosed with stage 4 cancer in the abdomen. With so much uncertainty and questions could I face this storm without fear if I was in their place? Then I was reminded of when Peter was walking on the water in Matthew 14. He was walking perfectly fine until a gust of wind came along and he took his eyes off of Jesus in the distance and began to lose trust in Jesus. Jesus reached out to him and caught him saying "you of little faith, why did you doubt him?" I have had a lot of fear over the last few weeks with loan repayment coming up VERY soon and still no nursing job. I have been very discourage with the hunt for a job and have been really sick of filling out applications. I was challenged to check my attitude against the fruits of the spirit which has helped a little to remind myself of the things I should be thankful for but also a challenge to find the joy and peace. The fears of never getting a job, of becoming a nurse, were consuming me. Then again it is told best in the novel Life of Pi,
) and came across a thought provoking statement in the book..."Storms are not an option, but fear is." It made me think of my friend's family as her dad was just diagnosed with stage 4 cancer in the abdomen. With so much uncertainty and questions could I face this storm without fear if I was in their place? Then I was reminded of when Peter was walking on the water in Matthew 14. He was walking perfectly fine until a gust of wind came along and he took his eyes off of Jesus in the distance and began to lose trust in Jesus. Jesus reached out to him and caught him saying "you of little faith, why did you doubt him?" I have had a lot of fear over the last few weeks with loan repayment coming up VERY soon and still no nursing job. I have been very discourage with the hunt for a job and have been really sick of filling out applications. I was challenged to check my attitude against the fruits of the spirit which has helped a little to remind myself of the things I should be thankful for but also a challenge to find the joy and peace. The fears of never getting a job, of becoming a nurse, were consuming me. Then again it is told best in the novel Life of Pi,
I must say a word about fear. It is life's only true opponent. Only fear can defeat life. It is clever, treacherous adversary, how well I know. It has no decency, respects no law or convention, shows no mercy. It goes for your weakest spot, which it finds with unerring ease. It begins in your mind, always. One moment you are feeling calm, self-possessed, happy. Then fear slips into your mind like a spy.
But we need to expose our fears, say them out loud because they lose power when we disrobe them. So that is what I am attempting to do. Hang my fears out to dry so the whole world knows.
Abba,
You have given me a heart for your people.
I want to use the gifts you've given me to help others.
Show me where and how you want me to help others and take the fear of failure away.
Give me a hospital, a specific unit, a specific population you want me to serve.
I want to use the gifts you've given me to help others.
Show me where and how you want me to help others and take the fear of failure away.
Give me a hospital, a specific unit, a specific population you want me to serve.
Here's a song by Meredith Andrews to meditate on this week.
